That night, we ate the mussels on the porch, and the stars came out one by one, shy and then brazen. A bat swooped the eaves. The water went black and silver. He told me a story about his grandmother—how she’d met a fisherman one summer in the fifties, how they’d written letters all winter, how she’d waited by this same window every June until one year he didn’t come.
He nodded. He did know. That was the worst part. He knew about the job in Portland, the lease I’d signed, the life I’d built eight months of the year that did not include him. He knew because I had told him, every summer, over and over, like a prayer or a warning.
His face did something complicated—hope and terror and that particular stillness of a man who has been holding his breath for a decade.
He was quiet for a long time. Then he reached across the table and took my hand—not desperately, not romantically. Just held it, like a fact.