But the real fracture came when I found the messages. Not another woman—worse. A group chat with his expat friends where he called Filipinas “practical” and said our relationships were “good ROI if you play the long game.” ROI. Return on investment. He was talking about me.
When I finally told Jamie about Matteo’s messages, she didn’t say “Leave him.” She said: “When did you stop believing you deserve a love that doesn’t make you smaller?” Filipina Sex Diary Rebecka And May Full Video
And Matteo? He texted last month. “I’ve changed. Can we try again?” But the real fracture came when I found the messages
That was the first night I thought about leaving. Enter Jamie. Not a lover—not yet. Jamie is my best friend from college. She runs a small bookshop in Quezon City and has never apologized for taking up space. She is plus-sized, loud, opinionated, and married to a woman named Dina who paints murals of anitos (ancestral spirits). They have been together for nine years. Return on investment
Some love stories are not about finding the right person. They are about finally becoming the right person for yourself.
So this is not a sad ending. This is a reckoning. I am not leaving Matteo. I am leaving the version of myself who thought love meant bleeding quietly.
— Rebecka M. Santos Las Piñas, Philippines October 2024